Friends Foes and Flaws
Dear Blog Diary, On the contrary of needing affection and love, I have fallen victim to not exactly saying how I feel. Love is supposed to be loud and big, right? To be human is to preform, to be adored. Although I am so very tired, I'd rather be loved and admired. In about a month and a half will be my one year single-versary. During this year I've learned how to tame my beast. My worst beast was me in love, I was desperate, suffocating and basically like a puppy following my "owners" orders. I remember in one of my relationships and we were discussing the "black cat" "golden retriever" theory where one of you are the more of the chaser or basically is just happy to be there, while the black cat yearns for attention but also is more likely to recieve the attention than display it. I feel like my whole life I've been a golden retriever just following my heart all the time and giving into the "love dru...